Entry 174: The Next Step

Entire journals, pictures, all 167 letters, poems, songs and other writings were torn to shreds today and thrown into the garbage.  Things that gave me hope were broken to pieces before hitting the dumpster.  Everything's been erased off my computer. There is nothing left, that I'm aware of, that's lingering behind... This was the next necessary step, and I've done it. Timing is everything. I am not about to mess with someone's emotions.  That's just not me.   And if I'm serious about moving on... If I'm serious about what I've been saying about being "ready"... then my actions will coincide. I'm not joking. I'm not messing around. I don't know what the Lord has in store for me.  I don't know His plan. But I REFUSE to hold onto something or someone I'm not supposed to. I know what I want.  I'm not confused.  I'm not scared. But I admit that I'm NOT okay right this second. I can't go forward if I don't know where I am. So... I'm waiting... And I'm interested to see what the Lord is going to do. Hmm... A new thing. A new beginning. An extension to my story. OUR story!!